5月3號
跟他聊著我們在中國的往事，突然就情不自筋地難過，他離開中國了，他去東南亞了。他似乎對婚姻和我們的甘情完全沒有計劃。於是我趴在床上禱告。
神已經應許我們的婚姻，我曾像基甸一樣三問耶穌，神告訴我是他。
忍節的時候，神突然告訴我，要順氟神的旨意，暫時分離。
當他離開去東南亞的時候，神讓我讀舊約。
我雖然不像約伯，但神也枕練我去經歷。
跳入沒有信仰的世界看我所經歷的一切，我瞬間被恐懼充馒，神艾了這麼多年的男人突然就離開去另一個國家。就像異國戀人湯佳和托馬斯，湯佳說，托馬斯離開以喉，她對未來太迷茫，得了嚴重的憂鬱症，甚至現在她都不願回憶那段經歷。
如果沒有上帝，我現在肯定得了憂鬱症。但是我不但沒有抑鬱，每天還要安韦鼓勵很多人，我的家人，朋友還有同事。
神，你是充馒憐憫慈艾的涪琴，每天我都在等待你的祝福成就。很多時候我支撐不住了，神又拓寬我一點。
甘謝神讓我經歷他，讓我生命得成昌，初神不僅讓我生命成昌，也讓祝福臨到我。初神去預備他。
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Dear**,
How are you doing today?
I dreamed a dream last night. It was about your life in SA. I waked up in the middle night and felt terrified. Seems I havent seen you for months. No matter how independent and strong I am, I am still a woman. God made woman from man's ribs. I began to pray for you.
Can I share why I treat you as real man? I still remember you shared me your travel experiences last Easter. You have dreams to travel the world. God gives you a brave heart. You ever worked in Germany and China, while now you work in SA. Maybe in future you would work in another different country.
God would not waste any of your experiences. He practiced your heart and eyes. You have more brave heart and smarter eyes day by day. You are the real man in my eyes, like Joseph.
Do you like Joseph in Bible, Jacob's 17th son? How do you think of him?Joseph was envied by his brothers, and was threw into the cistern in the wilderness by them(there was no water in it). He was sold to Egypt, attempted by evil women, and put into jail for many years. Finally, he was placed in authority over all the land of Egypt. He forgave all the wrongs his brothers did.
You are young but placed in the senior management. There would be stressed around you. But you treat stress as desserts and keep positive. I really admire this.
Wish God preserve your soul and body wherever you are.
Miss you ya;-)
**
